I’m afraid my Zen feelings have faded. I’m back to anger. I’ve never worked so hard at a job to have it turn back on me. These are things I need to remember in the future:
NOTE TO SELF:
1. If the word NEPOTISM is engraved in blood above the office door, LEAVE.
2. If the Executive Director is a new mommy, LEAVE. The only thing on her mind is baby food, breast feeding, nap time and little squirm. If you think otherwise, you’re kidding yourself. She’s malnourished, beyond tired and delirious with hormone adjustments. Still, this is no excuse. There is nothing professional about a new mother.
3. Don’t work–or date–in your own neighborhood. It sounds wonderful in the beginning, but if things go south it sucks.
2. Just because people are friendly at the office doesn’t make them friends. Friends are the people who are there for you when everyone else has averted their eyes from you. Keep your heart and truths tucked away.
3. If ANYONE in the office is a lawyer, again, leave. They are cunning and manipulative. That’s what they trained to be. Expect no less.
4. Getting old doesn’t necessarily make people nicer or wiser. It often makes them muddled and meaner. Think third grader with a time bomb. Continue with caution.
5. I know I worked, imagined, created, executed and ran around like a gopher to do the best job I could, because any less wouldn’t be me. I know I made mistakes. I know I had clients tell me I was doing a great job. And I know I have to try and let this go, because any energy given over to it is just a waste of my time, and yet that is the hardest thing to do.
6. May read Anarchist’s Cookbook. 😉